Most people I know look back at their child’s first year with a mixture of exhaustion, joy and wistful romanticism. Time erases a lot of memories of screaming and sleep deprivation and people tend to remember the good bits which, I suppose, is why people have more than one child.
I think back on Little Pencil’s first year with relief. I re-read the diary that I kept that year and I can’t believe that it was my husband and I dealing with such a sick little boy.
Little Pencil was born 10 weeks early and he spent two months in the Neonatal intensive care unit. And then he came home all beautiful and miniscule and proceeded to cry and get sick for a year or so. The doctor’s termed it failure to thrive which is possibly the worst name of diagnosis I have ever heard. Especially when you see him now.
Today I saw this video on Daily Life. The article warned me that I would cry. I wonder if they knew just how much. I wonder if other parents of premmies reacted like I did. Still crying and feeling very emotional three hours later.
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Bravo to the man that made this beautiful video full of hope and love, and bravo to my own little miracle.
Little Pencil 7 days old
Little Pencil 12 years later
Gorgeous, Lana. We didn’t have a great first year but nothing like yours. Still remember the shittyness of it all to well . Hence 1 child. Glad you all came through it so well 🙂 xxxxx
It’s hard when your memories of babyhood are all unpleasant… but it does make the later years more special. xxx
Very true. God I thought it would never end lol now we can giggle together, he eats, sleeps, amazing. Nothing ever stays the same. Thank dog. Xxxx
I might watch the video sometime – when I have some time to myself. Just your post made me cry 🙂 xx
And what a magnificent smile on 12yo Little Pencil!!
Thank you! He is the happiest boy in the world. We are very lucky, I’d safely call it a miracle 😉
Oh lord. My babies were 42 weeks, 41 weeks and 41 weeks respectively. I can’t even imagine having a premmie. But I did cry. And laugh (at the vomit). Divine.
The vomit was brilliant. Perfect way to break my tears xx
My first was three weeks overdue – well and truly cooked!
The video made me cry as well.. Such strong memories.
My little girl was born at 27w 2d last August. She was in hospital until a week after her due date. We have had a crazy 1st year with bronchialitis every 2 weeks between May and September but we made it!
I remember watching a particular episode of offspring while I was pregnant (it was about 4 weeks before I had my Bub) and reading your tweets about Little Pencil being prem. Never thought I’d experience it!
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Wow Jac! What a little fighter you have. So happy for you that Winter is over and so hopefully is the bronchialitis. The best times are still to come xxx
Hi Lana..
You were so right, the best was yet to come. My little girl is now about to turn 4 and we haven’t had a hospital admission since January 2015 (touch wood!)
How time flies – we only have one more year after this and she will be at school. Things have definitely improved, we know how to manage her health better and have pushed to see respiratory specialists to make sure we are on the right track, which we now are.
Hope you and little pencil are well xox
I wept too, and remembered. Mine was just that size when I first held him, but was a little further along in the breathing department, thankfully. Now I sit on the committee of a premature baby charity. Here’s to all our little prems. xx
I remember when your little soldier was born. So happy he’s doing so well
Your emails were so comforting to me Lana, and I haven’t forgotten them xx
Lana, what a precious little miracle Little Pencil is, and what a harrowing first few months, and year, you had – it’s heart rending…your lovely photos say it all. (I didn’t watch the Daily Life clip because I’m a big wimp and I don’t want to get too sad) X
He is very gorgeous isn’t he? xx
Lana, every time I read a post from you about your family, I think how lucky Little Pencil is to have a mum like you – so compassionate, caring and warm. He was always going to thrive being surrounded by THAT xxx
What a beautiful comment. Thank you so much x